I came home on the 14th to this! With PINK ribbons and Yellow balloons streamed all over our condo. my very good friends Teresa and Jill used the excuse that they were "watering" our plants to sneak in. CUTE
What a blessing to finally be home. Ketchum has been a peaceful and beautiful retreat. Clean clear crisp sky's. Green every where. You come here and you take a deep breath. Its good to be here again. I also have loving surrogate parents John and Wanda Vladimiroff, Sun Valley Adaptive sports family and a church congregation- Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, that met us with open hearts and arms.
On the first Friday night I was back to work. The SVAS crew was up at Pettit lake on a private rustic cabin(s) resort. 7 wounded warriors and their spouses have been spending three days learning water-sports and processing their lives with recreation. I get to meet, eat, and soak in the therapy with the rest of these giants. Could I be more blessed! What a way to come home, but I don't show them my battle wounds of course!
The next night Rob and I were invited to go the professional Sun Valley resort ice skating show with the warriors. Again, wonderful time to connect. I talk to "Bob" for 30min about his mission and how he was injured. I hear about him trying to save his buddy who died in his arms. The constant movie showing in his head every time he goes to sleep at night. Again I feel like I have had it too easy, a sort of survivors guilt. I'm want to stop feeling this way. I also talk to my breast cancer friend on the phone shes my age. She been out form her first diagnosis for 10 years. Its all through her bones and organs. Shes hopeful, I'm too. But I still feel like because I didn't have to do the worst, Chemo, radiation, I have nothing to give her. Its not fair to her. I cant help feel the way I do. I am praying for her now. Please do too. Her name is Shauna Ross.
I start Tamoxifen on Monday. We will see what the side effects are.
