Betty Page poses and energy work

Right after I found out, I went right to the Natural Niche a health food store in town. I asked them what do you take if you have cancer. I saw the shock in faces, I'm still not quite used to this. Its not as big a deal when you are living it. But I remember hearing cancer by my sister and panic would hit me too. Julie tells me to not overwhelm myself. "Don't spend hundreds of dollars here just wait". She advises me to get alkalined, and take a multi vitamin. Then tells me a name of a healer in town. Ironically I caught him on the local TV channel talking about his practices with one of his clients, a stage four lung cancer patient. I only watched 5 min, but I feel likes its Synchronicity. I call Rodney Blount. http://www.rodneyhealer.com/ He can see me next week. I start my raw food diet. When I get back from Cali I start a juice fast. I need to feel like I'm in control. Rob and I spend the weekend in Utah before Cali. Hes extremely supportive with the raw diet, the healer, alkalizing, all that voodoo. We buy a pretty green flowered binder (I just couldn't do pink yet) and an organizer to keep all my cancer papers together. It gives me so much peace that I have an advocate. He starts to research all about the cancer.

I get a call from my Patient care coordinator/angel Jill (divine intervention #?). She is from the Mountain States Tumor Institute. We find out a lot more about what kind it is. Invasive-not that good, means is popped out of the duct, could be floating around outside. Estrogen and progesterone positive-good, at least they can treat this with hormone therapy. We pour over books, Rob is able to calm me down. She suggests we get a MRI to look at the other breast and setup a genetics counselor. If this is hereditary, there is a lot more work to be done, double mastectomy, take out the ovaries. If it is there is a 40-80% chance I will get cancer in the other breast and in the ovaries. Now being born into this,thats not fair.

They want you to take action within 3 weeks. Dr Durchi only sees patients on Thursdays. I had scheduled a vacation to Cali to visit my parents and sister until Sunday but I have to come back 4 days early. Its hard to have fun when all you know is you have cancer, and there has been nothing done about it. Cindy and I try to blow off tension by taking pictures of each other making Betty Page poses on the beach. We laugh our heads off, people are staring and we wonder what they are thinking. If they only knew our history and our future. Cindy is finally feeling good about herself after a double mastectomy and chemo and me facing the loss of my femininity. This might be the last time I have these "girls" on the beach. I will try not to judge others until I am in their place. Lesson learned.