Are you sitting down?

July 3rd Last day of kids camp before the week long holiday. I'm trying to get everything ready for camp, I'm supposed to drive the bus. 8:30 am. Cell rings. I knew they were going to try to get the results back before the holiday but I didn't know it would be so soon. "Is this Shauna, are you sitting down?" My heart jumps on top of my tongue, I can barely say "wait". I'm standing next to a horse barn and there is no place to sit! She has to wait 30 sec before I can find something, although I know she's just telling me its bad. "You have breast cancer", but the good news is its treatable. "Who gives a $#!%! its still cancer!" I think. I found out its ER PR positive estrogen progesterone positive. It feeds off these hormones. It has the calcifications in it that were in my other breast on the X-ray. I asked her questions but I didn't ask what kind it was. All I remember asking was "will I be able to have kids?"- "you'll have to ask your oncologist" The sobing begins and someone else drives the bus. Here am I sitting alone in this big world and all these people have no idea waht I just heard they just go on with their lives, weird.... I start to think.....
This is an opportunity! Why would I need this? There is a reason! Something to know learn. I thought keep your eyes wide open! I called Rob. "Ill come and get you". Then I called Cindy. Cindy states "It will be okay, I will make every step with you and I would take it again if I really could just so you wouldnt have to do it". I can feel her warmth melt my soul. Im the most blessed sister ever!!!